TRUST ISSUES

I seem to be the only one who has trust issues. I mean I can't just bring myself to trust people. Not with my time, resources, family etc.
You see it started a long time ago, and then I tried to let go but each time I opened up I was disappointed. So I've given up trying.
I find it easier to give people the benefit of doubt than to throw all caution to the winds and expect a miracle.
I love surprises but only when they are pleasant of course.
In recent times social media has been agog with stories of house-helps gone wrong, I seem to be the worst hit. I shudder in reminiscence of what I went through as a child in the face of what these "house-helps from hell" unleash on the children placed in their care.
One day, soon, I shall be ready to tell my story to the world.
So I decided I was never going to bring a help into my home. The world we live in has become a thriving ground for evil and nefarious activities. I chose to rather take my kid to a creche/daycare center.
As usual, I would read out my riot act, lol at that, to the care givers before handing the child over. 
Do not induce my child to sleep by the use of any form of drug or chemical substance. Do not use somebody else's material, especially things that go into the mouth. Do not give him someone else's food even if he rejects what I have packed for him and has had to stay hungry for hours,etc.
My list is not usually a very long one and they are encouraged to 'flash' me while I call back in the case they needed further clarifications or help.
So you can imagine my chagrin when on this fateful day I was to drop the lad quite late because of the things I needed to tidy up at home and on getting to the creche about fourteen children all under one year were sleeping at the same time, their care givers too had 'arranged' themselves nicely for a good nap.
And then I remembered the day one of them said to me, "we're christians, we don't do such".
Transfixed there, I kept trying to understand the scene before me. 
I had to withdraw the child that day and that closed the chapter of creches for me.

I don't have any regrets but I wish we could have trust worthy people to handle our kids while we go about trying to assist the family income without fear for the children's safety.

 To think that someone will open her door for a total stranger one night and leave same stranger all alone with her kids the next morning is rather careless in my opinion and before I get a backlash for this I do understand the woman's plight at the said time and understand too that sometimes one cannot be too careful but the welfare of the children should have come first vis a vis ensuring that the children were in 'safe' hands not 'strange' hands.

A lot of our mothers have graduated from this stage and a lot of us are currently  in it. Reading others' experience can go a long way in assisting us.

So what's your story?